I could write a book about that.
It is not really me. It is about where I am, being gay, a homosexual who is Ugandan. A Ugandan who is homosexual. Or is it a human being who is homosexual?
It is that, and more. But it certainly bears little to me being what I am.
Once I told a guy, a friend, that I am gay. He was a recent acquaintance, but a friend. He is a Christian. A 'saved' Christian. Of recent it seems as if everyone is a Christian. And that is the problem.
I told this guy that I am gay. I am sure that he had not met any other guy who would affirm it, or at least that is what I think. He was stunned. He looked at me as if I had grown horns, of a sudden. But he listened to me.
A few weeks later, he asked me whether I had been serious, whether I was really a homosexual. I assented. Could see that though we had not talked about it since the first time, it had been on his mind.
Why is it such a big deal?
Mainly because of the church. From the pulpits in
I told my friend that it is not a moral issue. That it is an issue of being. He laughed, incredulous at my naivety, as he saw it. So I asked whether it should matter to him if I was not a Christian. Can I be a homosexual and a Christian? That he could not grasp.
I have lived my life in
I have had to work out a lot of that anger at the church. I have had to come to grips with my spirituality. I understand more, a bit more, those of us who dare to affirm that they are gay, and Christian.
Yet I still ask myself, why does this matter so much? Why is it such a big deal that I am a homosexual?
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Jesus defines sin as lack of love. What is unloving about homosexuality?
You say that being gay is "just a small part" of you, but methinks that the overwhelming evidence is that, for you, your sexual orientation is such a big deal that you seem unable to discuss anything that is unrelated to it. How else does one explain your post after post, after post, of lamentation after lamentation, about being gay, and Ugandan, as if there is something so very terribly unusual about that.
There are thousands of gay Ugandans. It is true that most are compelled to remain hidden in the closet because of their society's homophobia. But mere lament about the fact of being gay, and Ugandan, is insufficient to bring about the change in the society's attitude, which presumably is the desired outcome.
I long to see a more positive attitude, as this in my view casts us gay people in a more positive light. I doubt that there is much to be achieved when we continue to play the role of the victim. Thanks.
Hi Maxwell. No, nothing unloving about homosexuality. Except that some people do not believe that.
Anonymous friend,
too true, there are thousands of Gay Ugandans. And they are great people.
I can be positive! Check out 'He calls me Husband' below. Yet, I will not disguise the thorns in the rose bush. I am gay, and Ugandan. I do not lament that. I am not in denial about that. It certainly is a statement of pride, not lamentation at all!!!!
I will show where I come from. The pain I feel. I will work out the anger. But I will not deny that that anger is there. That was the fire that tempered me as a human being.
Gay, and Ugandan, and proud of those parts of my identity!
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