The Gay Closet; Uganda, and Germany

An expose of gay life in Uganda has Afrogay angry.

They've had a journalist infiltrate the Kampala gay community to try and ferret out what makes gay boys tick. It's not the first time this sort of thing has happened and the only thing that sets it apart is that this journalist has made a clumsy attempt to be balanced. That said, this journalist simply knows too much about the gay community for me to believe that he didn't get embedded deeper than he admits.And that is a great cause for discomfort.

The tactics the journalist are pretty basic and that he seems to be so successful merely attests to the humanity in all of us. But it is also a wake-up call for those Ugandan gay boys who seem unable to take the simplest precautions in this day and age when stalkers, blackmailers and malevolent people are on the prowl, with gay boys and girls as their target.

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Indeed, for guys who are under pressure, the pressure of one of the most homophobic countries in the world, it is simply too easy to infiltrate us. And, it is possible.

Oh well....

To my friends out there, I must confess I am more paranoid than lots of people. I mean, I have aided connection and lessening of our isolation in more than one way. Yet I continue to be anonymous. I am gayuganda, gug. And that is who I want to be. Gay, and closeted, and damned shy! Some have more to lose than others. Maybe I am just a coward.

Yes, I know lots of people know who I am. But, not to the extent of opening up to people like in this journalist's expose.

Within a period of three weeks, I learnt that gay relationships are almost like straight ones. Those involved charm, seduce, deceive, try to manipulate with money and even plead with whoever they are interested in to give into them and yes, they also get cheated on It was a hot Tuesday morning and I was seated in front of my computer reading an online article about gays in Uganda. The page had a link to a website called icebreakersuganda.org.

I clicked on it out of curiosity. It is probably one of the boldest gay things I have seen in this country. It’s a website that encourages gay people to come out and embrace their sexuality (thus the name icebreaker) and it connects gay people in Uganda. The website has a guestbook link where visitors of the site can update any comments or ideas on their mind about the website.

However, most of the comments posted on the website’s guestbook are announcements of gay people who want to meet other gays for mere company, sex or love. Consequently, this segment of the website has been turned into a “lonely hearts” of sorts for gay people. Some of the posted messages are darkly explicit and complete with e-mail addresses and phone numbers.

One of the posted messages on the website was an announcement for a gay party of sorts. It had a phone number attached to it.

Gay, in the closet, in Uganda? Why the recklessness of those who are gay in Uganda?

Because it is very hard to live in self denial; and sometimes recklessness takes the place of despair.

I was mourning about the closet in Uganda. We are not alone. The German national team, the one which did so well in the World Cup of football? Well, they are a 'bunch of gays' Ha ha ha ha ha!

I am not alone in my woes about the goodness of the closet. Says one former manager of the Bundesliga-

The whole issue of gay players in the Bundesliga is a sensitive issue in Germany. In March former football manager Rudi Assauer provoked outrage outrage by saying there is ‘no place' for gay players in football.

Assauer, who was boss of Schalke in Germany, said: "Perhaps they are OK in other sports but not in football.

"If a player came to me and said he was gay I would say to him: 'You have shown courage.' But then I would tell him to find something else to do.

"That's because those who out themselves always end up busted by it, ridiculed by their fellow players and by people in the stands. We should spare them these witch-hunts."

His outburst is set to enrage world footballing authorities who are making concerted efforts to rid the game of homophobia.

Asked whether he had ever met a gay footballer during his many years as both player and manager, 65-year-old Assauer replied: "No, never.”

Ugh, of course German football is so holy a spot that no gay people make their way into that holy of holies. Self deception at its best

gug

GayUganda is feeling Cheeky. More than usual, that is...!

We all are human beings. Unique.

Just caught the last of a trail of thought. We all are unique. Even the most gifted of us have closet we don’t want disturbed. The most open have closed corners where none else is permitted.

Bududa, the area on Mt. Elgon that had the landslide that killed lots of people. It depresses me. The pics are from New Vision.

I console myself that, what can I do about it?

Little. True.

And, I have to acknowledge that, though impressive, and huge, the disaster area, when I look at the slums and hovels of the people of Kampala. When, I look at the children begging on the streets…

Do we have to go there?

Maybe, I shouldn’t touch that faint guilty train of thought. There is always something in my neighbourhood which deserves my attention. Which I am too tired, or too busy, or too otherwise occupied to apply my attention to.

[shrug]. Afterall, I am human. Even though I am a gay evil one, in some person’s expectations!

Have figured out a way of having my task lists displayed to my satisfaction. Kind of a bore. Am one of those who like organised disorganisation, and neat task lists don’t do it for me. So, maybe this way may be better. My solution? Hardly innovative. Imagine what a teenager does to his socks in his room…. Or, Lukyamuzi’s phone contacts scrawled on his walls. Hardly innovative. But, it works for me!

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Now, Afrogay went and did this brilliant analysis of the Goliath vs David of the proxy gay anti-gay wars that are happening in Uganda.

I always bemoan the fact that, we kuchus  are shallow, disorganised, always fighting each other, not even uniting in face of this horrendous Bahati bill.

Our detractors point to the blog and say, a huge ‘disinformation’ machine. They point to poor SMUG and say, the agents of ‘recruitment’. But, in actual fact we are nothing more like irritating fleas that are playing on a mammoth. What can we do?

For ourselves?

We are too weak. But, those who believe we must be strong so that they kill us with ‘nuclear’ weapons go ahead to magnify our capacities.

Well, read Afrogay’s analysis.

For me, I will tell you that, I have just discarded my ‘bichupuli’ Nokia which had given me so many problems that I had to throw it away. Don’t laugh at me. We buy counterfeits because we don’t have the money for the originals. And, we forget that when we do that, we are actually using our hard earned money to buy far more expensive things. Sigh, indeed, poverty is the most expensive thing on earth. I was hoping that this year, Nsaba Buturo's 20 Million USD would rescue me, but the account still registers empty. I have even stopped dreaming of all I would do with all that money.

Afrogay’s analysis was so good, the Behind the Mask people thought they should get a taste of it. It is goooooood!

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Talking of analyses, here is one that I usually take a glance at. Seems this guy has matured, a bit. But, not much… Hey, that is my arrogant self.

The site is here.And, let me pick and choose some of the testaments on it. 

Kizito Michael George Library A Discernment and Apostasy watch site for African Saints. Signs of the Time: Landslides kill hundreds in Uganda : Tough questions for Pastor Martin Sempa and Pat Robertson

 Hey, I am not a Christian.

So, sometimes I do poke fingers into people’s eyes…. Because it is fun. But, that saint is putting Martin Ssempa under the microscope. Interesting results….!

Hey, Martin Ssempa Twitts!!!

Yes he does. Under the name martinssempa. Do you want some excellent quotes? Of course you do, don’t you? Here.

More than 100 Ugandans dead from landlides due to rains. We desparately need help with just the basics. I wonder if Hilay Clinton will call?

Redneck bloggers suprised that an African has a PhD! Wow! Check out my post at martinssempa.blogspot.com Be the first to know!

So many journalist wanting to talk to me..Brazil, France, Netherlands. What is so newsy about teaching that marriage is Man to Woman? Ha ha

So why are they wanting to keep the strait eyes from knowing WHAT the queer guys really do? Are they afraid of the truth?

2:41 AM Feb 23rd via web

So why are they wanting to keep the strait eyes from knowing WHAT the queer guys really do? Are they afraid of the truth?

2:56 AM Feb 22nd via web

Oh yes, he did retweet that one. For emphasis. The Martin Ssempa Gay Porn Show is a sell out. I know that, because seems as if everyone is planning to attend the next one. Problem is, where is it going to be? Parliament?

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Someone did interview me. I was feeling in a good mood. So, I will link to my naughty answers. Here. 

And, no. This is an action that I would not support. Sincerely, when the PEPFAR funds were threatened, I looked at it and thought, No, thanks. 200,000 Ugandans who are HIV positive depend on PEPFAR and Global forum to stay alive. And, we have at least 1million of us who are HIV positive. I would not touch their life line in my fight to stay alive. I am simply not that ruthless. Let us put it down to the fact that I am kind of putting down my foot. The end will not justify the means.

My people are poor. Dirt poor farmers. This was hinted about in this article. And, a boycott is being called for?  No, brothers, sisters. There is something like fighting too dirty a war. Please, don’t.

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Being in a super good mood, I went over to Martin Ssempa’s blog and left a message. No, nothing bad. Just being a good Christian and directing him to a very Christian article. [Hey, I am NOT Christian]. But, I was doing a Christian service. Here is my comment.

Hi Martin,

you doing fine?

It is cheeky old gayuganda here. I have been on the Throckmorton blog and couldnt not see this article.

It is great reading. Right up your chute... err, alley, if you know what I mean!

Come on, go ahead and read it. If you dare.

The contact is this, just click on it.

Warning. There is no gay porn shown on it.

Now, with that, why don’t I sign out? No, Martin does control the comments on his blog. So, the blog told me that ‘Your Comment will be Visible after approval’

Odd, for such a popular blog, there were no comments. Maybe he hasn’t gotten around to doing the approval thing?

Be well, chipper, and full of beans, like I am. [i swear i dont know what that expression means...!)

gug